The Breeze from the Land’s breath

I miss Japan so much.

It’s only natural to miss the place where I had the most amazing memories in my life.  The place where I found love, lost love, made a lot of friends, met many inspiring people….

Japan is my first and only love in my life.

No matter where I am, I feel the force of it pulling me, whispering those sweet memories to me like an unforgettable lullaby in the loneliest of nights.

I miss it so much, lately I just have been crying alittle.  I miss my friends and places like Yokohama and the buildings in Tokyo.  I miss my agency Kiyoras, and the sachou, manager and people who work there.  I miss everybody.  I tried to look away, tried to forget, but it hurts so much.

I know things will be better when I start working next month and start saving up.

Oh yeah I forgot to mention, I finally have a car now!  I even started driving.  So I’m not completely sad. =)  I’ve accomplished a lot that I haven’t before, there’s more to do.

I feel really good when I’m driving, like I’m in control for once.  It’s great because I recently bought a cd for driving, it’s the best of John Lee Hooker from the 60’s-70’s so it’s really good.

Before that, I was listening to my Tomb Raider movie soundtrack.  I love that one too and Aerosmith.

I guess I’m doing good.  I’m really thankful to have great parents.  They are so supportive.  Kansha kansha desu.

I guess even with this, what I miss is what I miss.

And I will always miss.

How do you get over something like that you know?

How do you move on?

I don’t have any of the answers.

……To be honest, I want to go back, finish what I started.

But it’s never that simple.  I promised myself from this year on, I won’t chase something that never moves.

Sou, jibun ni yakusoku shitanda.  Korekara wa, jibun wo motto daiji ni shiyoutte ne.  Jibun no michi ni susumi, aratana hikari ni abi nagara, atarashii mono ya yume wo mitsukeru tte…..sou.

I have to keep my promise to myself, remind myself why I left.

Why, and that reason will keep me from going back to those dark days.

Mae ni muku.

Sayonara & Konnichiwa, soshite YOROSHIKU!

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